Are you still watching? Still Judging?

When I was in High School we were taught about a "Found Poem" Found poetry is a type of poetry created by taking words, phrases, and sometimes whole passages from other sources and reframing them as poetry by making changes in spacing and lines, or by altering the text by additions or deletions. We did this with poetry by Walt Whitman, and Robert Frost. I thought it was very interesting, and decided I would try it with songs, by Taylor Swift. Because I love Taylor Swift. Remember I do not own any of Taylor Swifts songs and what I am doing is out of pure amusement for myself. I admire Taylor Swifts ability to write good lyrics, and I am only doing a mash up of her songs to create a "Found Poem" not for personal gain in any way. In conclusion I don't own the lyrics, and would not like a law suit on my hands. I would also like to thank Taylor Swift for her gift, and for being willing to share that gift with all of us. The mash up I'm making is a mash up of songs that aren't happy ones but more tell a story of hurt and pain, and unhappily ever afters. I find that life can be bittersweet emphasize on the bitter part. I've hurt, felt pain, and continually have been watched and judged and its exhausting. It surprises me that people still follow my every move when it's obvious their opinion of me will never change, and I have lost interest in pleasing them. But if you must, keep watching because I'm sure I will do something completely crazy you'll least expect, hey I'm a Jarvis at heart what can I say we go out with a bang!

You and I walk a fragile line
I have known it all this time

And when you take,

You take the very best of me

This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe

You, with your words like knives
And swords and weapons that you use against me
You have knocked me off my feet again

You have pointed out my flaws again

I walk with my head down
Trying to block you out 'cause I'll never impress you

I bet you got pushed around
Somebody made you cold
But the cycle ends right now
Cause you can't lead me down that road

Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking,
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me,

All this time I was wasting,
Hoping you would come around

This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore

Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever going to be is mean

All you are is mean

And a liar, and pathetic, and alone in life
And mean, and mean, and mean, and mean

I was naive

This ain't a fairy tale

The end...

Happy Birth!!

A big happy birthday to my big brother the Marine!!! I have so many fond memories with my brother most of them involve me getting injured somehow. Lets just say life isn't boring when my brother is around. I have the greatest big brother in the world!!! Congrats to him and his wife they have a baby boy due any day now!!!!

I'm Just an Ordinary Girl

Don't I just have the cutest little family? This is Jordan, me and our lovely dog Kyo. These guys are the greatest ever. Kyo makes me so happy, he loves the trampoline, and giving kisses...Oh and his new squeaky toy. Jordan loves netflix, taking things apart, and kisses!! I love the outdoors, sleeping, Reese's and kisses! I feel so blessed. I love my family so much, they know exactly how to cheer me up.

I thought I'd mix things up today and blog. My husband pointed out to me that I usually blog on Thursday's. I was like no I don't but then I looked at the 4 blogs I had done so far in November, and 3 out of 4 were on Thursdays. Let's make a list of things I don't like that sounds like fun.

I don't like mean people!!!!

Driver's license photos

Gum

Being woken up in the morning

Did I mention mean people?

Commercials

Spiders

Ghosts

Scary movies

Being picked on

I am sure there is more but that's all I can think of right now. It's such a small list so that means there are tons of things I like. My best advice to everyone right now just be patient!! Well tha-tha-tha-tha-that's all folks!!!

Poets Corner

Loving A Rose

By Alexandria J. Eliason

To him she is his everything

The one who makes his heart sing

He would die and live for her

If she had cancer he would find the cure

Loves her more than life itself

Has a picture of her on every shelf

And she is a rose beautiful and cruel

In the end she will play the fool

She treats him like a door mat

Walks all over him until he is flat

But he can't help but love her

Even though it kills him

Her thorns wrap around his heart

With each different boy they dig deeper

He's constantly broken and fallen apart

But back for more just one more chance

She begs him on her worn out knees

Promises it won't happen again

With silent tears he let her back in

She is just a rose beautiful and cruel

But in the end she'll be the fool

When it's too late to change he'll already be gone

As a rose comes to life it will also die

And when she has lost her gardener she will be lost

Breath will escaper her lungs, light will fade from her eyes

But with her luck she will stay alive

Forced to watch him be happy without her

He will fall in love with someone else

She will be left behind wishing she had changed

But he will move on because....

Loving a daisy is so much easier than loving a rose

Land of the Free

I am thankful for those who served or are currently serving in the United States Military. I am thankful to live in the land of the free. I am thankful that not only is my husband fighting for my freedom, but my brother is as well. I am thankful to all of those who serve!! You men and women are truly amazing! Thank you Veteran's!!! I hope I never forget those who are so willing to fight for my rights, and freedom. Thank you, thank you, thank you, you are greatly appreciated!!

Thank you!!!

Does He know?

Does he know?

1. I am insanely in love with him
2. He makes me smile even when he isn't here
3. Somehow he manages to sweep me off my feet every single day
4. I don't know where I would be without him
5. I am completely addicted to him
6. He talks too much (lol)
7. He snores, but when he is gone I miss that snoring
8. I love the way he smells when he comes home from work
9. The few moments I have with him during the work week, are the most cherished moments of my day
10. That I would rather spend a day with him, then reading a book (This one is a big deal)
11. He is my reason, my hope, my whole world
12. When I get moody and upset, it's because I miss him and think maybe if I'm grumpy the National Guard will let him come home early from drill (Haha not likely)
13. That he is my most favorite person in the whole world
14. I am not content because content is settling but I'm ecstatic to be spending Eternity with him
15. I know I give him a hard time about the past, but does he know he was completely worth all the drama, all the loss, and all the love
16. It was always back to him
17. No one in the world gets me like he does
18. That 90% of the poems I've written are about him in some way
19. Not only has he been my Jacob, he will always be my Edward! (I couldn't resist)
20. That he is my best friend my key to survival

I love my husband very much, he is one of the greatest gifts God has giving me. I am speechless when it comes to my love for him. This post is me wanting to make sure he knows how much he means to me. Jordan Blake Eliason, thank you for asking me to be your wife, thank you for putting up with all my craziness, but most importantly thank you for being the worlds greatest husband. You really do get me, and I am so happy with you! Your my perfect situation!! My only one!! All the things that hurt before, now are made new, the past was bumpy, but together we can make new memories. I love you.

Poets Corner

Descent

By Alexandria J. Eliason

Her Part

Put down my bag, hang up my coat

The silence is eerie as I begin the descent

Towards the room where you and I lie

I should by now be ale to hear your breathing

You should by now be sleeping

Walk past the photographs

They mock me with their happiness

Make a stop at the first door on the right

Strip down to my skin, turn on the water to hot

Postponing the event

Wash my skin, brush my teeth, towel in hair

Robe around, feet bare

I continue towards the door

Hand on knob, heart in throat, breath is gone, tears in eyes, fear in mind

The handle turns, the door opens

The room is silent, I call your name

But no response, tears down face, hate this place

Clothes in drawer, bed is cold, empty

Open top drawer, pull out ring slip on finger, still not comfortable

Out of bed in the closet, grab a shirt pair of pants

Lay them beside me

Fall asleep to the lullaby of my cries

Fall asleep wrapped in your old clothes

There all I have left now that you've gone

His Part

Hang up my coat, slip off my shoes

I can hear the hum of the fan from the room where you and I lie

Stop at first door on the right

Strip down, warm water down my back

Mop up the mess, begin the decent

Switch off the light, walk out the door

By now I should hear you breathing

But instead a sort of faint screaming

Started as a walk, turned into a run

Hand on knob, heart in throat

Throw door open

Screams have turned to moans

As I eye my angel

Curled up in a ball

Tossing and turning she calls out my name

Caught in a dream I shake her awake

"Love" I say. Hush her cries, tell her it will be okay

"A nightmare" she whimpers.

Crawl on the left side, the right is hers

Hold her the way I've only held her

Kiss her forehead, warm her body

The trembling subsides soon hushed breathing

I lay awake holding my life

Grasping knowing in an instant she could be gone

I say a silent prayer, and my heart breaks as she turns to her side

Breathes in deeply and drifts away to a deep sleep

My wife I sigh, My wife and her nightmares.

HAPPEY BIRFDAY JORDAN!!!

Happy Birthday to my little sister Jordan Danae Jarvis!! Too many memories to blog about. Favorite nicknames Ryan, Cheeseball, and Lavender!! I hope you have an amazing 17th Birthday, and maybe one day you'll actually get your license and I won't have to drive you around everywhere! Thanks for letting me take you to the movies every Wednesday!! And thanks for always being willing to play dress up, and act crazy!!

Writers Block+PCOS=Life

Well it seems I have writers block lame right! I find at times I am able to write and it's wonderful everything flows so beautiful together like a masterpiece painting. Then there are days when the pencil doodles on a page, because no words seem to make sense. I'll get random pieces words, sentences, phrases that fit here and there, but it doesn't fit together. It's like I'm doing a puzzle but all my pieces are from different puzzles and they don't match. When I'm having writers block one of my favorite things to do is take songs and mix them together. I'll put my ipod on shuffle and take lyrics I like from songs, and make a song out of them. It's fun. Well there is my writers block. Hopefully I'll get out of it.

I was diagnosed with PCOS Poly cystic ovarian syndrome. It's kind of hard to explain so I'll just put a link up. http://www.medicinenet.com/polycystic_ovary/article.htm

I hope that helps, the Dr. said lots of women are able to get pregnant with PCOS and not to stress or worry about it. She said just to have fun with my husband right now, so that's what I plan to do have fun with my husband. He is the greatest guy ever! I just love him so much. Well I think that's all for now. We're hoping for a positive pregnancy in the near future, until then we'll enjoy every second we have with each other. Carpe Diem!

Poets Corner

I think I'll share two today.

Fall Back

By Alexandria J. Eliason

If I told you not to breathe

Because you'll steal this moment away from me

I told you not to hide

Those Forbidden feelings from inside

Just Fall, let go of all you've ever known

I'll catch you I swear

Just come back to me, and fall back home

Don't look back

I promise it will all be over soon

The poison on my lips has infected you with my innocence

Fly, go on and spread your wings

Reach so high, and I'll be right beside you

When you fall, fall back home

Take my hand we will make it I swear

Step closer to the edge, words become whispers,

whispers become thoughts.

Jump, dive into that sea below

I'll be the last thing you see

Fall back home to me

Please breathe, just once for me

I'll never leave this moment

If you promise to always stay

This moment is so precious and fading fast

Promise me it will always last

Scream, scream out to me I've lost my way

Reach, reach out to me I need your strength

Fall, fall for me I have fallen for you

In this moment we will stay, don't breathe.

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By Alexandria J. Eliason

I'll close my eyes

Our lips can touch

Stop me if I ask too much

I'll forget all the lies

And lower this disguise

I'll give it all

Hold me tight

Don't tell me this isn't right

I'm going to fall

I'll feel small

Just take my hand

I promise to make it all better

Can water get any wetter?

Together we'll jump and leave this land

But don't forget it will be hand in hand

Hold me close and tight

Give me breath when I forget

Dance with me when I want to sit

Make me feel light

I am telling you this is right

The road is wet I am going to slip

Carry me when I can't bare it alone

Please, I'll try and always use a loving tone

Make my heart skip

But never rip

Oh yeah and by the way

Know I love you

Because truly I do

I'll wait until May

For now this is all I can say

Waiting on 2 pink lines!

Well if you don't already know Jordan and I are trying to get pregnant. I know crazy right we just got married we should be enjoying the time alone we have together and we are but before we got married we both knew we wanted a baby right away. So since day one we have not been using protection. Here it is almost month 4 and no baby.

The first month of being married I went a little crazy and bought a ton of pregnancy tests. I spotted in July, and then got my friendly visitor on August 1st so month one officially no baby. I told myself that I wouldn't buy so many pregnancy tests because they are just so expensive. So I have taken two since my last period and here I am 63 days late and both tests have been negative. The other day I took it right when I woke up so my eyesight was a little blurry, and I thought there was two lines but nope just sleepy eyes tricking me. Now your all probably wondering why we are trying right away.

There are several reasons we are trying right away, we want a baby, but my reason I hate admitting is fear. I have a fear I won't be able to have children. Throughout my whole life my cycle has been extremely painful I have gone to the hospital a couple times and they have found cysts on my ovaries. I also have never been regular. My mother had a total hysterectomy before the age of 30, and was lucky she was able to have 4 children. It took her a year of trying before she was finally pregnant with her last child, and she was only 26yrs old. I plan on making an appointment with an ob/gyno here pretty soon to see what I can do so I can get pregnant.

I wrote this post, to kind of vent and get this fear off my chest. I know that through prayer, and faith the Lord will take care of me. At this time instead of me praying to my Lord asking for a baby, and asking what I am doing wrong, why is he punishing me, why won't he give me a baby, I will pray and ask for comfort, and help to prepare myself for the time he will bless me with a baby. I pray for strength to be a good mother in such a terrible world, I pray for patience because I know I need to work on that, and I know I will need lots of patience when I have a child. I pray for a constant companion of the Holy Ghost, and the Savior because I know when I do raise a child I won't be able to do it alone. I pray that I will not over obsess with getting pregnant, and will take the time to enjoy my marriage. Most importantly I pray I won't forget who I am A Daughter of God. And as a Daughter of God, I put all my faith, and trust in the Lord, because I know that the Lord loves me, and will always be there for me, even when the way seems dark. The Lord is my light.

Poets Corner

My fallen Angel

By Alexandria J. Eliason

He is one of those Angels

That has fallen from grace

There is pain and misery written all over his face

I can see right through him

Behind the smile full of lies

I can see his pain

And I know at night he cries

I just want to save him

I've been blind always seeing the best in him

Always fighting for him

The only one to remove my blindfold was him

I saw him for who he was today

Disappointment sketched across my face

Oh the places he could of gone

The people he could of saved

And I see the only way to escape

I turn and bow my head, try not to let him see me cry

So I turn, and I run, as fast as I can, I run

I can't look back, look at what he has become

He is just one of those Angels

That has completely fallen from grace

I'm waiting, waiting for him to return to his rightful place

I can see right through him, know he hurts, I know he cries

And I know every single one of his lies

I love you is all he would say

I love you, but there is just no other way

I love the dirt!!!

What a beautiful Fast Sunday we had today. I taught my Sunday School class for the first time, I was extremely nervous, but everything went smoothly. Of course while at church the dogs attempted to escape 2 times!! Jordan was sent home for dog sitting.

Duke is quite the little tyrant always breaking the fence and trying to escape. Kyo of course just follows Duke wherever he goes. Countless times we have repaired the fence, we got Duke a dog line and we hook that up to him when we leave, but he still gets out. So we got a choke chain and we hooked the dog line up to the choke chain, but somehow he managed to unhook his choke chain from the dog line crazy right?! We've tried kenneling him when we leave but he ripped a whole in his kennel. Duke has broken several window screens, and destroyed many bedrooms trying to get out when he is home alone. Today Jordan re-built the fence, and added some new stuff to it to make sure the Dogs can't get out. He even built a homemade gate out of old wood flooring for my Mom's garden. He is such a great guy. Sure he can be a little messy and I can to, but when he puts his mind to it he can build and fix the coolest things!! I love my husband!!

While Jordan was repairing the fence my Mom and I dug for potato's. I guess you could call it a rednecks garden because we planted the potato's in old tire wheels. I think it looks cool. Any who my Mom and I got to play in the dirt, digging up bugs, potato's, and some occasional pine cones. It was lots of fun, and a great way to spend a Sunday with family out in the sunshine!

Poets Corner

Summers Dance

by Alexandria J. Eliason

What a sweet smell lingers in the air

As the soft patter of rain grazes across the hot summer pavement

Dark clouds roll in, the summer blues float out

A flash of light dances across the sky

Thunder claps at her beautiful grace

The Sun dips low behind the curtain

Giving her a chance to shine

It's been the sun all summer

The beautiful Lightening stretches her legs

Warming up for her ballet

Spectators come from all around

Kicking their shoes off to run through the puddles

Laughing out loud they all collapse to the ground

Breathe a sigh of relief

The wind flows around

One last pirouette, the dance ends

The Sun returns

The spectators shuffle back to their lives

Memories of the dance linger in their minds

They wait in anticipation for the next time

Happy Birthday Dad!!!

This is a shout out to my awesome Dad. It's his birthday today!! I won't tell you how old he is haha!! Not only has my dad been my dad but for many years he was my basketball coach, softball coach, and partner in crime in annoying my mom. I'll never forget one trip to Myrtle Creek, when I saw a baby deer I said "you know what baby deers say?" He said "What?" and then I said "Ma Ma" as if I was a deer, guess you had to be there but it was hilarious!! The rest of the way we kept saying "Ma Ma" in deer voices, my poor mom was so annoyed!! My dad is great, because not only does he rock out to metalica you can also find him singing along to Ke$ha and owl city. My dad is great because he scares the crap out of everyone and you can never tell if he is joking or being serious. My dad is great because he always has the coolest stories to tell. Here are some fun pictures of my dad! This ones for you Dad!

Poets Corner

All my writings have special meaning to me. They may be hidden to everyone else, but everything I write has a piece of myself an it. This next poem I am going to share with you, its a very personal poem. It was written my Senior year of High School. Many girl struggle with their weight, appearance, and eating disorders. I unfortunately fell into this category. I was never overweight through High School but I thought I was, I looked in the mirror and saw FAT. So the summer of my Senior year, I quit eating when I did eat I made sure it was small portions, if the portion size was too big I would take care of that later by making myself sick. I knew I needed help but I became obsessed I loved that I could wear a size zero, I loved that me losing so much weight was drawing attention from other people. Once I started eating again, it took me a while before I became comfortable and happy with my body the way it was. Some days I still struggle I look in the mirror and see the FAT again. Luckily I've learned to love food too much and going with out it just makes me hungry. I think one day I will write a book called "I thought I was fat when I was 45lbs skinnier." Well here is the poem. Hope you enjoy. Oh and if you have an eating disorder please seek help! It's not healthy, and you are beautiful just the way you are I promise!

How much is too much?

By Alexandria J. Eliason

I wipe my mouth with the back of my hand

And flush my dreams down the toilet

How will I ever be who I want to be?

When I am stuck in this place!

I hope they don't notice the strain on my cheeks, the moisture in my eyes, the shaking of my hands.

I hope they don't notice the frailty in my body.

I hope they won't try to stop me or try to help

Yes I know I have a problem, but I don't want your help, I don't need you.

Don't need you to tell me I'm beautiful the way I am.

Because to me my beauty is my bones showing through my skin.

I'm just not there yet.

Let me go a little longer.

Let me lose a few more pounds.

As the tears fall down your sober faces

The sky begins to cry out in pain

It turns a dark grey, and it rains

Oh the dreadful rain falls hard,

Hard on my wooden cage

But I can only watch can't ask you to stop

"And Mom I am sorry, Mom please don't cry, Mom I can't comfort you, Mom I am scared, Mom don't go please don't go, don't leave me here!"

Oh God! My God what have I done?

I just wanted to lose a few more pounds

I didn't want this

I should have let you help

I should of stopped

I am sorry, I am sorry I let myself die.

It's Just Another Manic Monday.

Wish the weekend was still here. Jordan and I had a wonderful time visiting with family. I spent most of the day at my Aunt's house for the baby shower. Jordan spent most of the day up a mountain hunting. All in all it was a pretty good weekend, minus me getting hay fever!

Ah Monday how I hate you! I started to clean and organize are room today, but no dice. Jordan and I have enough clothes to clothe a small army. I work a lot of late nights so I tend to sleep in really late. I got a late start on everything today but I plan to be ready for work by 4pm. Work this week is going to be exciting. I work a couple 12hr days, and then just regular 8hr days. I get the weekend off which is exciting because weekends are usually our busiest. I'm tired, frustrated, and my head is killing me!! I'm all done blogging for today I need to get some stuff done. Thought you'd enjoy this wonderful picture of how I feel today.

I love to Read!!

I've decided to put all of the book series that I'm waiting for the next book/books to come out. Bare with me I know they are all pretty much vampire series but hey I'm a girl and what can I say the impossible intrigues me!

• Vampire Diaries by L.J. Smith
• Night World Series by L.J. Smith
• Vampire Academy Series by Richelle Mead
• Blue Blood Novels by Melissa de la Cruz
• The House of Night Novels by P.C. Cast and Kristin Cast

I think that is all of them right now. Now I thought I'd make a list of the books I've read that I really enjoyed.

• Harry Potter Series by J.K. Rowling
• Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte
• The Scarlett Letter by Nathaniel Hawthorne
• Any Jane Austen book
• By a Lady by Amanda Elyot
• The Morning Gift by Eva Ibbotsen
• Nancy Drew by Carolyn Keene
• The Hunger Games, Catching Fire, and Mocking Jay by Suzanne Collins
• Twilight Series by Stephanie Meyer
• Poetry of Robert Frost, and Emily Dickinson

I know there are more lots and lots more because, I figure I read at least 100 books a year. I love to read I always have, it's my favorite way to escape from the chaos around me. I'm sure you all do this when your reading but I love to find characters that remind me of people I know, usually I always play the heroine I know I'm selfish, and Jordan plays the hero! And then I find other similarities in my family and friends with characters in the book. I hope you enjoyed my list of books, and maybe you'll find one that you haven't read that interests you. I recommend the Catching Fire series it's really good!!

Well Off to clean up and pack Jordan and I are headed to Myrtle Creek for family fun!

Wet Wednesday!

Jordan hasn't been feeling very well lately, I think there is some sort of bug going around. Several people at work aren't feeling to swell either. I hope I don't get it. Well since my sweet husband has been feeling icky, I thought I'd take on some of his chores!! And of course one of those is washing the dogs!! Here is a nice little video I made sorry about the annoying song I couldn't figure out how to turn it off. Oh and there are a few pictures from our camping trip we took in July. I guess I should tell you about our lovely dogs. Duke is our German Shepard he is 5yrs old, loves to rip the boards off the fence and get out, scared of thunderstorms, and being alone. Kyo is the newest addition to the family, he is almost 1 year old and is a samoyed husky mix, he loves to rip up anything pretty much, sleeps in front of a fan because of all his fluffy hair, and always is smiling. I should mention Duke loves water and swam over the lake 3 times, where as Kyo not a big water fan you'll see in the pictures how he enjoys the water!! Duke and Kyo may be troublemakers, but I wouldn't trade them for anything. They seem to always know when your feeling down and need a kiss!! Oh I forgot to mention Libby my parents dog makes an appearance in one of the pictures, she is crazy haha, she loves digging holes, swimming, eating spiders, and of course snoring. Oh did I mention she has the worst gas ever!!! I love our family's dogs!! And someday we plan on making more additions to our little clan. At this moment we are thinking a Bull Mastiff!!

2$ Tuesday!!

Lets see what's going on today. Its Tuesday, and I am blogging!! Getting ready for a 48hr work week, next week. Jordan is a little frustrated because we won't be able to see much of each other, but we really need the money!! This weekend however we will be going down to Myrtle Creek, OR. To see some family, and go to my cousin Denise's baby shower!! Oh and of course Jordan is going to do some squirrel hunting.

Oh BTW it's 2$ Tuesday at Dutch Bros.!!!!!!

I've changed my major for the third time, and will now be seeking a career in something I love. Writing!! Tuesday will be my share a little of something I've wrote with everyone so here is one of my latest, it's called Glass.

Glass

By Alexandria J. Eliason

I was blinded by love

You made me feel alive

I was smitten with hope

You tasted so sweet

I was risking it all

You were impressive

I was in awe

You fooled everyone so easily

I was no different than the rest

I was stuck in your game

You tried to open my eyes

But I was hard to change

I longed for your love

And I'm stuck, stuck, found

Opened my eyes today

Saw the truth in front of me

For just one second I couldn't let myself believe

That I was the one deceived

The things I thought

The words you said

A vine of anger wraps itself up in my heart

I scream "Was it lies from the start?"

Whisper your sorry, said you did it all for me

Tell me would you try and change the one you love

Tell me how it feels

Once all the truths have been revealed

Seeing that your plan fell through

Knowing now I will never love you

Was it worth the risk

Was it worth the pain

I'll move on

While you'll stay the same

In that place where I was in love with a lie

I somehow made you mine

Like the calm before the storm

We shared a moment of peace and love

In a trance of happiness

You finally spoke the words I needed to hear

"My darling I love you"

For once the words felt real

You beg me to think back to that day

Before I walk away

I can't help but cry "It was all a lie"

You can tell me you love me, but don't ever expect me to believe you

This relationship built on glass

Shatters all around us

As I turn and walk away

And wonder if you truly ever felt the same

The secrets behind the lyrics

Beautiful to Me by Jaron and The Long Road to Love

You were Juliet and I was into you
And I asked you out 'til you couldn't say no
And you finally felt it too
I drove you down the boulevard
That's where you took my heart
And you gave me yours instead
And every day you find new ways to be beautiful
You laugh at the garden that we grow in the lawn
Drink coffee in the kitchen with no makeup on
Sing all the wrong words to my favorite songs
You're beautiful and that's beautiful
You got lines on your face from sleepin' on me
Call me at work 'cause you lost your key
Go to buy a dog and you come home with three
You're beautiful and that's beautiful to me
Yeah
You turn every head when you walk into a room
But your kindness and your sweetened soul lingers like perfume
Babe, you coulda gone with Romeo but you let him go
And you stayed with me instead
And every day I find new ways that make you beautiful
You say, "honey give me roses, but don't buy red"
You need 46 pillows all over the bed
Guess every punchline before it's said
You're beautiful and that's beautiful
What you doin' with a guy like me?
You're so cool and I'm high tea
I don't deserve to have a girl as beautiful as you
Yeah you laugh at the garden that we grow in the lawn
Drink coffee in the kitchen with no makeup on
Sing all the wrong words to my favorite songs
You're beautiful and that's beautiful
You got lines on your face from sleepin' on me
Call me at work 'cause you lost your key
You go to buy a dog and you come home with three
You're beautiful and that's beautiful to me
You're so beautiful and that's beautiful to me

Jordan and I got married June 10th of this year. We were married for time and all eternity in the Portland, Oregon temple. A reception was held in our honor on June 11th. A big thank you goes to Samantha Willie for all her awesome work, the bouquet, the cake, and the reception decorations. To Kristen Moss for the beautiful pictures. And to everyone else who helped out!! To see all the wonderful pictures check out my facebook.http://www.facebook.com/?ref=logo#!/album.php?aid=175238&id=675868340 Now for the meanings behind the music! This song above came out probably a month before we were married, Jordan heard it and was like this is totally Alex, and then I heard and laughed. Our only problem was we already had a perfect song picked out, that we have had picked out since forever. It's always been our song. So it came down to choosing this new and exciting song, or our song...and we ended up with our song which is Little Moments by Brad Paisley. Listen to it and you'll see why we chose it. As for the father daughter dance the song chosen was Cleaning this Gun by Rodney Atkins. The song pretty much sums up my dad!! I forgot to mention the song we walked out to for obvious reasons Another One Bites the Dust by Queen. As for the bouquet toss Your Love is My Drug by Ke$ha. The garter toss You Shook Me All Night Long by ACDC. The song we left to was I've Got a Feeling by Black Eyed Peas. If you listen to the songs, I hope you can see why we picked these songs for our wedding reception.

Now for a more present update. Jordan and I have been married for a whole 2 months wow right?! I am loving it, and yes it's different, but it's a good different. We are learning new things about each other everyday, but lots of things stay the same. Like the way Jordan makes me laugh, or smile, or just happy. I am pretty sure I have the worlds greatest husband but I am biased. Jordan is working for Glory Bee Foods, and I am still at the theatre! We both work 4o hours a week, and most of the time our shifts are opposite of each other so he leaves in the morning and comes home in the afternoon, I leave in the afternoon and come home in the morning. It makes it hard to spend quality time together, but when we have the chance too, we are usually riding scooters, playing with Kyo, or cuddling on the couch and watching a movie! Well and thinks that's all to update today. Hope all is well with everyone. As for the newest Eliason family life is great!

Listen to What a lovely musical!

Around her head she wore a yellow ribbon!

So it's been forever long since I've posted a year, crazy huh? Well I've decided I better start posting again and updating all you readers of mine (lol nobody reads this) how life is. Well first lets talk about my not boyfriend but I still love him going on a mission Jordan. No longer my not boyfriend but is now my Fiance! I know right crazy how things change in a year. Well Jordan joined the National Guard last.......May lol yep last May, and away he went in July for basic training and ait and all that fun Jazz....oh Yeah I moved to Utah in August too, long story and I'll tell you when your older! So Jordan is at BT and AIT and I'm sad and lonely for 6 whole months!!! Here lets see a picture of my lovely soldier!What a cutie right? Any who back to the main reason of posting this lovely blog the proposal..... Actually I think I'm going to keep you all waiting, and I'll post about the proposal another time.

Next time on Accident Prone Alex: Will Jordan propose, does Alex make a trip to the airport, and who is the mysterious man in a red suit with a white beard? All will be revealed on the next blog or will it??