I am so bored with my life at this moment, and find myself going through the motions. Doing everything on auto pilot. My body knows the movements of the day but my mind has checked out. This same routine is just boring me to tears. Work, clean, read a book, sleep, get sick(technically never get better), and the cycle starts over.
Don't get me wrong I love my life, I love my amazing husband, my amazing family and friends, it's just I've been doing the same thing for so long, my heart is begging me for a change of pace. Anything new I guess. Let's break this down.
Work- I have a pretty good job, and am grateful for it and I know that there are plenty of people out there that are jobless and need jobs so I shouldn't be complaining. But...I'm so bored with it, the routine of it, the going to it, and not seeing my husband.
Clean- Ugh...why do you always have to be constantly cleaning? Can't everything self clean itself for goodness sakes?!? I loathe the litter box!!
Reading- I guess the books are the only thing changing in my life, on a good week I can go through 3-6 books. I am enjoying my personal scripture study and looking forward to finishing the Book of Mormon, and starting it again to see how many times I can read it in one year.
Sleep- My body loves sleep and if it doesn't get at least 10hrs of sleep it doesn't know how to function. I know again I should be grateful because how many of you busy people out there get even a full healthy 8hrs of sleep. Sleep and I have a hate and love relationship I love to sleep but I hate missing my day. It's complicated!
Sickness- I don't know what is wrong with me but I find myself back on antibiotics after only a week of being off of them. This time a stronger dosage and a longer amount of time taking them. It seems though that being sick has become part of my routine.
I miss the days were I had less responsibility and I could be more spontaneous. When I could just up and go spend a whole day at the beach, or go on a hike, or road trip somewhere. I miss school and learning. I want to learn something new take a class, go for a hike, I even want to try zumba. Yes I am complaining, and yes I realize that the only person who can get me out of this so called rut is myself. I know I need to make the changes I want to see, and I know it won't always be easy, and some days it will feel like a rut, but looking on the bright side of things always helps, I mean it could be raining!! Dreams are never too far out of reach. I guess in venting a little I've released some of the tension, and life doesn't seem so rutty anymore. Venting is nice....Have a great day everyone!!!
Love,
ME!!
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Monday, January 10, 2011
Happy Birthday Jordan!
His side
~She always sang her own song. Danced to her own beat of the drum. Charismatic people flocked to her side. Eyes gleaming, smile shining laughing out loud. She caught his eye. From a distance he watched as she gracefully wandered the room. Always surrounded he didn't see a way in. In one life changing moment their eyes locked. And the world stopped, the people around her drifted to the background as she made her way slowly to his side.
~Introductions led to firsts, holding hands, secret kisses. Along with the happiness came the troubles. Doubters whispered lies in their ears, hopeing to end what they thought wasn't right, "Too young" they muttered, "Too young to love so much." Confused and scared she drifted back to the life she lived before. Longing to return to his side.
~From a far they watched eachother forced smiles on their lips, eyes pained with loneliness. Happy were they who fought so hard to get them apart. Little did they know what's meant to be will always find a way. And a love like theirs found it's way. With her mask on the ground he found her with tears not even making a sound. He kneels, whispered softly, tells her to take his hand, and he leads her back. In a dress fitted for a Queen she enters the room. A hush fall on the crowd. Beauty undescribable they wait for her to descend. A wave of shock surges through the people, as they see him emerge from the shadows. Her eyes full of love, she takes his hand, and all witness her return to her rightful place by his side.
~In years to come some will still try and destroy what is meant to be. Set is stone is the love they've made, a love to last an eternity. And all the while faithfully she'll remain by his side.
Happy Birthday Jordan Blake Eliason. I am so happy you were born! I don't know where I would be without you. Please don't ever change a thing, I love you very much! I've had the time of my life fighting dragons with you!
Love,
Alexandria J. Eliason
~She always sang her own song. Danced to her own beat of the drum. Charismatic people flocked to her side. Eyes gleaming, smile shining laughing out loud. She caught his eye. From a distance he watched as she gracefully wandered the room. Always surrounded he didn't see a way in. In one life changing moment their eyes locked. And the world stopped, the people around her drifted to the background as she made her way slowly to his side.
~Introductions led to firsts, holding hands, secret kisses. Along with the happiness came the troubles. Doubters whispered lies in their ears, hopeing to end what they thought wasn't right, "Too young" they muttered, "Too young to love so much." Confused and scared she drifted back to the life she lived before. Longing to return to his side.
~From a far they watched eachother forced smiles on their lips, eyes pained with loneliness. Happy were they who fought so hard to get them apart. Little did they know what's meant to be will always find a way. And a love like theirs found it's way. With her mask on the ground he found her with tears not even making a sound. He kneels, whispered softly, tells her to take his hand, and he leads her back. In a dress fitted for a Queen she enters the room. A hush fall on the crowd. Beauty undescribable they wait for her to descend. A wave of shock surges through the people, as they see him emerge from the shadows. Her eyes full of love, she takes his hand, and all witness her return to her rightful place by his side.
~In years to come some will still try and destroy what is meant to be. Set is stone is the love they've made, a love to last an eternity. And all the while faithfully she'll remain by his side.
Happy Birthday Jordan Blake Eliason. I am so happy you were born! I don't know where I would be without you. Please don't ever change a thing, I love you very much! I've had the time of my life fighting dragons with you!
Love,
Alexandria J. Eliason
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Happppy Birthday SAmmmmy Jaayyy!!
Today is my favorite older sisters birthday!!! Happy Birthday to Samantha Nicole Willie!! Her Birthday is obviously Jan 5, her social is 653-838-0987, her address is 3324 somewhereinsalem ln. if you need any more information to steal her identity please leave a comment below.
I have the worlds best older sister, she has always been there for me through the good, the bad, the ugly, and even the awkward! Many times I have relied on her help with hair or make-up for events, and transportation. I love her very much and couldn't have asked for a better sister. Thank you Sam for being AWESOME!!!
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