Happy Birth!!

A big happy birthday to my big brother the Marine!!! I have so many fond memories with my brother most of them involve me getting injured somehow. Lets just say life isn't boring when my brother is around. I have the greatest big brother in the world!!! Congrats to him and his wife they have a baby boy due any day now!!!!

I'm Just an Ordinary Girl

Don't I just have the cutest little family? This is Jordan, me and our lovely dog Kyo. These guys are the greatest ever. Kyo makes me so happy, he loves the trampoline, and giving kisses...Oh and his new squeaky toy. Jordan loves netflix, taking things apart, and kisses!! I love the outdoors, sleeping, Reese's and kisses! I feel so blessed. I love my family so much, they know exactly how to cheer me up.

I thought I'd mix things up today and blog. My husband pointed out to me that I usually blog on Thursday's. I was like no I don't but then I looked at the 4 blogs I had done so far in November, and 3 out of 4 were on Thursdays. Let's make a list of things I don't like that sounds like fun.

I don't like mean people!!!!

Driver's license photos

Gum

Being woken up in the morning

Did I mention mean people?

Commercials

Spiders

Ghosts

Scary movies

Being picked on

I am sure there is more but that's all I can think of right now. It's such a small list so that means there are tons of things I like. My best advice to everyone right now just be patient!! Well tha-tha-tha-tha-that's all folks!!!

Poets Corner

Loving A Rose

By Alexandria J. Eliason

To him she is his everything

The one who makes his heart sing

He would die and live for her

If she had cancer he would find the cure

Loves her more than life itself

Has a picture of her on every shelf

And she is a rose beautiful and cruel

In the end she will play the fool

She treats him like a door mat

Walks all over him until he is flat

But he can't help but love her

Even though it kills him

Her thorns wrap around his heart

With each different boy they dig deeper

He's constantly broken and fallen apart

But back for more just one more chance

She begs him on her worn out knees

Promises it won't happen again

With silent tears he let her back in

She is just a rose beautiful and cruel

But in the end she'll be the fool

When it's too late to change he'll already be gone

As a rose comes to life it will also die

And when she has lost her gardener she will be lost

Breath will escaper her lungs, light will fade from her eyes

But with her luck she will stay alive

Forced to watch him be happy without her

He will fall in love with someone else

She will be left behind wishing she had changed

But he will move on because....

Loving a daisy is so much easier than loving a rose

Land of the Free

I am thankful for those who served or are currently serving in the United States Military. I am thankful to live in the land of the free. I am thankful that not only is my husband fighting for my freedom, but my brother is as well. I am thankful to all of those who serve!! You men and women are truly amazing! Thank you Veteran's!!! I hope I never forget those who are so willing to fight for my rights, and freedom. Thank you, thank you, thank you, you are greatly appreciated!!

Thank you!!!

Does He know?

Does he know?

1. I am insanely in love with him
2. He makes me smile even when he isn't here
3. Somehow he manages to sweep me off my feet every single day
4. I don't know where I would be without him
5. I am completely addicted to him
6. He talks too much (lol)
7. He snores, but when he is gone I miss that snoring
8. I love the way he smells when he comes home from work
9. The few moments I have with him during the work week, are the most cherished moments of my day
10. That I would rather spend a day with him, then reading a book (This one is a big deal)
11. He is my reason, my hope, my whole world
12. When I get moody and upset, it's because I miss him and think maybe if I'm grumpy the National Guard will let him come home early from drill (Haha not likely)
13. That he is my most favorite person in the whole world
14. I am not content because content is settling but I'm ecstatic to be spending Eternity with him
15. I know I give him a hard time about the past, but does he know he was completely worth all the drama, all the loss, and all the love
16. It was always back to him
17. No one in the world gets me like he does
18. That 90% of the poems I've written are about him in some way
19. Not only has he been my Jacob, he will always be my Edward! (I couldn't resist)
20. That he is my best friend my key to survival

I love my husband very much, he is one of the greatest gifts God has giving me. I am speechless when it comes to my love for him. This post is me wanting to make sure he knows how much he means to me. Jordan Blake Eliason, thank you for asking me to be your wife, thank you for putting up with all my craziness, but most importantly thank you for being the worlds greatest husband. You really do get me, and I am so happy with you! Your my perfect situation!! My only one!! All the things that hurt before, now are made new, the past was bumpy, but together we can make new memories. I love you.

Poets Corner

Descent

By Alexandria J. Eliason

Her Part

Put down my bag, hang up my coat

The silence is eerie as I begin the descent

Towards the room where you and I lie

I should by now be ale to hear your breathing

You should by now be sleeping

Walk past the photographs

They mock me with their happiness

Make a stop at the first door on the right

Strip down to my skin, turn on the water to hot

Postponing the event

Wash my skin, brush my teeth, towel in hair

Robe around, feet bare

I continue towards the door

Hand on knob, heart in throat, breath is gone, tears in eyes, fear in mind

The handle turns, the door opens

The room is silent, I call your name

But no response, tears down face, hate this place

Clothes in drawer, bed is cold, empty

Open top drawer, pull out ring slip on finger, still not comfortable

Out of bed in the closet, grab a shirt pair of pants

Lay them beside me

Fall asleep to the lullaby of my cries

Fall asleep wrapped in your old clothes

There all I have left now that you've gone

His Part

Hang up my coat, slip off my shoes

I can hear the hum of the fan from the room where you and I lie

Stop at first door on the right

Strip down, warm water down my back

Mop up the mess, begin the decent

Switch off the light, walk out the door

By now I should hear you breathing

But instead a sort of faint screaming

Started as a walk, turned into a run

Hand on knob, heart in throat

Throw door open

Screams have turned to moans

As I eye my angel

Curled up in a ball

Tossing and turning she calls out my name

Caught in a dream I shake her awake

"Love" I say. Hush her cries, tell her it will be okay

"A nightmare" she whimpers.

Crawl on the left side, the right is hers

Hold her the way I've only held her

Kiss her forehead, warm her body

The trembling subsides soon hushed breathing

I lay awake holding my life

Grasping knowing in an instant she could be gone

I say a silent prayer, and my heart breaks as she turns to her side

Breathes in deeply and drifts away to a deep sleep

My wife I sigh, My wife and her nightmares.