Rut-a-tut-tut I'm in a rut.

I am so bored with my life at this moment, and find myself going through the motions. Doing everything on auto pilot. My body knows the movements of the day but my mind has checked out. This same routine is just boring me to tears. Work, clean, read a book, sleep, get sick(technically never get better), and the cycle starts over.
Don't get me wrong I love my life, I love my amazing husband, my amazing family and friends, it's just I've been doing the same thing for so long, my heart is begging me for a change of pace. Anything new I guess. Let's break this down.
Work- I have a pretty good job, and am grateful for it and I know that there are plenty of people out there that are jobless and need jobs so I shouldn't be complaining. But...I'm so bored with it, the routine of it, the going to it, and not seeing my husband.
Clean- Ugh...why do you always have to be constantly cleaning? Can't everything self clean itself for goodness sakes?!? I loathe the litter box!!
Reading- I guess the books are the only thing changing in my life, on a good week I can go through 3-6 books. I am enjoying my personal scripture study and looking forward to finishing the Book of Mormon, and starting it again to see how many times I can read it in one year.
Sleep- My body loves sleep and if it doesn't get at least 10hrs of sleep it doesn't know how to function. I know again I should be grateful because how many of you busy people out there get even a full healthy 8hrs of sleep. Sleep and I have a hate and love relationship I love to sleep but I hate missing my day. It's complicated!
Sickness- I don't know what is wrong with me but I find myself back on antibiotics after only a week of being off of them. This time a stronger dosage and a longer amount of time taking them. It seems though that being sick has become part of my routine.
I miss the days were I had less responsibility and I could be more spontaneous. When I could just up and go spend a whole day at the beach, or go on a hike, or road trip somewhere. I miss school and learning. I want to learn something new take a class, go for a hike, I even want to try zumba. Yes I am complaining, and yes I realize that the only person who can get me out of this so called rut is myself. I know I need to make the changes I want to see, and I know it won't always be easy, and some days it will feel like a rut, but looking on the bright side of things always helps, I mean it could be raining!! Dreams are never too far out of reach. I guess in venting a little I've released some of the tension, and life doesn't seem so rutty anymore. Venting is nice....Have a great day everyone!!!
Love,
ME!!

Happy Birthday Jordan!

His side

~She always sang her own song. Danced to her own beat of the drum. Charismatic people flocked to her side. Eyes gleaming, smile shining laughing out loud. She caught his eye. From a distance he watched as she gracefully wandered the room. Always surrounded he didn't see a way in. In one life changing moment their eyes locked. And the world stopped, the people around her drifted to the background as she made her way slowly to his side.

~Introductions led to firsts, holding hands, secret kisses. Along with the happiness came the troubles. Doubters whispered lies in their ears, hopeing to end what they thought wasn't right, "Too young" they muttered, "Too young to love so much." Confused and scared she drifted back to the life she lived before. Longing to return to his side.

~From a far they watched eachother forced smiles on their lips, eyes pained with loneliness. Happy were they who fought so hard to get them apart. Little did they know what's meant to be will always find a way. And a love like theirs found it's way. With her mask on the ground he found her with tears not even making a sound. He kneels, whispered softly, tells her to take his hand, and he leads her back. In a dress fitted for a Queen she enters the room. A hush fall on the crowd. Beauty undescribable they wait for her to descend. A wave of shock surges through the people, as they see him emerge from the shadows. Her eyes full of love, she takes his hand, and all witness her return to her rightful place by his side.

~In years to come some will still try and destroy what is meant to be. Set is stone is the love they've made, a love to last an eternity. And all the while faithfully she'll remain by his side.


Happy Birthday Jordan Blake Eliason. I am so happy you were born! I don't know where I would be without you. Please don't ever change a thing, I love you very much! I've had the time of my life fighting dragons with you!

Love,
Alexandria J. Eliason

Happppy Birthday SAmmmmy Jaayyy!!

Today is my favorite older sisters birthday!!! Happy Birthday to Samantha Nicole Willie!! Her Birthday is obviously Jan 5, her social is 653-838-0987, her address is 3324 somewhereinsalem ln. if you need any more information to steal her identity please leave a comment below.

I have the worlds best older sister, she has always been there for me through the good, the bad, the ugly, and even the awkward! Many times I have relied on her help with hair or make-up for events, and transportation. I love her very much and couldn't have asked for a better sister. Thank you Sam for being AWESOME!!!

Are you still watching? Still Judging?

When I was in High School we were taught about a "Found Poem" Found poetry is a type of poetry created by taking words, phrases, and sometimes whole passages from other sources and reframing them as poetry by making changes in spacing and lines, or by altering the text by additions or deletions. We did this with poetry by Walt Whitman, and Robert Frost. I thought it was very interesting, and decided I would try it with songs, by Taylor Swift. Because I love Taylor Swift. Remember I do not own any of Taylor Swifts songs and what I am doing is out of pure amusement for myself. I admire Taylor Swifts ability to write good lyrics, and I am only doing a mash up of her songs to create a "Found Poem" not for personal gain in any way. In conclusion I don't own the lyrics, and would not like a law suit on my hands. I would also like to thank Taylor Swift for her gift, and for being willing to share that gift with all of us. The mash up I'm making is a mash up of songs that aren't happy ones but more tell a story of hurt and pain, and unhappily ever afters. I find that life can be bittersweet emphasize on the bitter part. I've hurt, felt pain, and continually have been watched and judged and its exhausting. It surprises me that people still follow my every move when it's obvious their opinion of me will never change, and I have lost interest in pleasing them. But if you must, keep watching because I'm sure I will do something completely crazy you'll least expect, hey I'm a Jarvis at heart what can I say we go out with a bang!

You and I walk a fragile line
I have known it all this time

And when you take,

You take the very best of me

This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe

You, with your words like knives
And swords and weapons that you use against me
You have knocked me off my feet again

You have pointed out my flaws again

I walk with my head down
Trying to block you out 'cause I'll never impress you

I bet you got pushed around
Somebody made you cold
But the cycle ends right now
Cause you can't lead me down that road

Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking,
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me,

All this time I was wasting,
Hoping you would come around

This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore

Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever going to be is mean

All you are is mean

And a liar, and pathetic, and alone in life
And mean, and mean, and mean, and mean

I was naive

This ain't a fairy tale

The end...

Happy Birth!!

A big happy birthday to my big brother the Marine!!! I have so many fond memories with my brother most of them involve me getting injured somehow. Lets just say life isn't boring when my brother is around. I have the greatest big brother in the world!!! Congrats to him and his wife they have a baby boy due any day now!!!!

I'm Just an Ordinary Girl

Don't I just have the cutest little family? This is Jordan, me and our lovely dog Kyo. These guys are the greatest ever. Kyo makes me so happy, he loves the trampoline, and giving kisses...Oh and his new squeaky toy. Jordan loves netflix, taking things apart, and kisses!! I love the outdoors, sleeping, Reese's and kisses! I feel so blessed. I love my family so much, they know exactly how to cheer me up.

I thought I'd mix things up today and blog. My husband pointed out to me that I usually blog on Thursday's. I was like no I don't but then I looked at the 4 blogs I had done so far in November, and 3 out of 4 were on Thursdays. Let's make a list of things I don't like that sounds like fun.

I don't like mean people!!!!

Driver's license photos

Gum

Being woken up in the morning

Did I mention mean people?

Commercials

Spiders

Ghosts

Scary movies

Being picked on

I am sure there is more but that's all I can think of right now. It's such a small list so that means there are tons of things I like. My best advice to everyone right now just be patient!! Well tha-tha-tha-tha-that's all folks!!!

Poets Corner

Loving A Rose

By Alexandria J. Eliason

To him she is his everything

The one who makes his heart sing

He would die and live for her

If she had cancer he would find the cure

Loves her more than life itself

Has a picture of her on every shelf

And she is a rose beautiful and cruel

In the end she will play the fool

She treats him like a door mat

Walks all over him until he is flat

But he can't help but love her

Even though it kills him

Her thorns wrap around his heart

With each different boy they dig deeper

He's constantly broken and fallen apart

But back for more just one more chance

She begs him on her worn out knees

Promises it won't happen again

With silent tears he let her back in

She is just a rose beautiful and cruel

But in the end she'll be the fool

When it's too late to change he'll already be gone

As a rose comes to life it will also die

And when she has lost her gardener she will be lost

Breath will escaper her lungs, light will fade from her eyes

But with her luck she will stay alive

Forced to watch him be happy without her

He will fall in love with someone else

She will be left behind wishing she had changed

But he will move on because....

Loving a daisy is so much easier than loving a rose